Merry Christmas

I wish everyone a Merry Christmas. I hope you are with family and friends today celebrating another year of good fortune and wishing the good fortune of the New Year.

I have to work today. The client is not getting together with family so I have to be there for her. We plan farkle. So it will get her mind off of family for a while.


Don’t forget to have fun…

Don’t forget to have fun. And I don’t mean manic fun. Just have fun with friends or enjoy a hobby. Like knitting, coloring, or reading. I read 3 to 4 books a month. And realize if I am not reading up to par. Then I notice I am not enjoying my hobby as much. I also like walking and if I am not walking as much. I feel sluggish and unmotivated. In the winter is harder because of the cold and snow. I also like going out with friends too. And just let loose. Every once in a while it is fun to socialize. So go do something and have fun.

Tis the season…

Tis the season to experience more stress than usual. I was suppose to go to a family gathering extended family this weekend. Over 100 people that I don’t really know. See once a year. I decided not to go this year. I need my break from work and hate being busy all weekend. I know that people will ask about me. But they hardly talk to me when I am there. So it really is hard to go.

My mental health is more important than a family gathering that gets me nervous and worn out. Well, that’s it for now.

Strange hallucination

Around 5pm yesterday. I thought I heard explosives going off. It hurt my ears even. But when I asked about it to a neighbor she did not hear anything. It was so strong of a hallucination it seemed so real. But my mind does trick itself. I suffered at least from a bad migraine. I hope that it does not continue.

Happy Thanksgiving

I tend to get a little stressed out over the holidays because seeing the family. My uncles and everybody. I think I am not going to see all my cousins etc. On my mom’s side because there are too many of them over 100. And I only see them once a year. So it is more superficial. I rather have just a few people I really care about and see them.

I get stressed out to that my family does not accept my boyfriend it is hard. I will never bring him to a family function. My parents have said he is not welcome in their house. I have many friends on SSDI and my boyfriend is trying to get on and my parents think he is lazy. That’s all they see. Just because he is not the bread winner he is a lazy person.

I don’t love him for that I love him because he is supportive, kind, and loves me unconditionally.

Anyway getting off of subject have a Happy Thanksgiving. Eat up.

Being a caregiver

Emotionally stressed out. I have been helping everybody else but me. I have been putting my self care last. And it is taking a toll on me. My mental stability is compromised.

It is hard when two of your friends need your help in a crisis in two day time period. It is emotionally draining and then work calls me because they need a pca to help a client. I have a hard time saying no. Yet I did clear my schedule two days in a row. I finally feel a little bit better.

I have a busy weekend coming up. It will be hard but I will get through it. I am taking four days off from work. It is too much for me. I am getting a doctor’s note today.

Self talk…

You can either have positive self talk or negative self talk. Try to be positive even when your thoughts turn cruel or negative. Say I will get through this I am worth it. You can even write it on a post it note and stick them on the bathroom mirror somewhere that you will see them every morning. Doing this helps us to get out of our destructive thoughts. Or you can read a little book of positive affrimations.

It really does help to get you thinking positive about yourself. It raises yourself esteem. It helps me. I read a daily quote everyday to start out my day. It helps me to get into a positive mindset.

So go ahead start today turn a frown to a smile.